Meosophy

It is quite easy to get caught up in the day-to-day experience of the “grind wheel” . That is, where you work, eat, sleep day in and day out doing the same monotonous activities that make you feel a bit imprisoned in being a human while we experience this life. We may get caught up and feel passionless and feel that the world begins to work against us. We feel that there is no right in this world. We may be stuck in our own thoughts and become hard on ourselves and begin to form a jaded perspective of our experience/ life from within our own mind. We get so lost and begin to ignore our feelings. We have influential people today that even suggest ignoring feelings. Which can confuse many people for face value. What they are trying to say is achieve a state of Being where you do not have judgment of yourself or others where you can simply be peaceful and loving of just Being a human. Some may say, well isn't that enlightenment? Absolutely not. We all can achieve a state of being in our life. We just have to have the tools to understand how to form that perspective. You have to exercise your mind to form that perspective of being in the middle, in balance of your mission and your purpose.

Mission and purpose, a duality of unity that I, spiritually, find fascinating. How does one obtain their mission? And what vehicle or vessel does one use to propel their mission into purpose? We focus on “Self”. It is easy to overcomplicate experiences today, but I believe it is because we have been over exposed to the idea of the “think outside the box” approach. We have all heard the phrase before. We aren't quite sure when we first hear it, especially growing up in America, but we know we were very young when first exposed to the idea. We can get fixated on that particular approach to problem solving, which positions us as outward beings when looking for answers or resolutions. All the while, what we need in order to understand the self, comes from within. Think Inside the box, as all solutions can be found within. We are already there to receive the lessons. I use a term I'd like to coin here and now called Meosophy. Through my research, there was no simple term for the “Study of the Self”, or “Psychology of the self”. Seriously, look it up. The practice of doing so are those exact sentences of said practice. So meosophy was given to me and I had to find its meaning and thus it is truly born at the date of this post. 

Meosophy: The practice of looking within oneself philosophically and spiritually to understand and open themselves to the experience of being human. 

The concept has taken a little over a year for me to feel out and grasp its deeper meaning. With meosophy, you are to understand that the self is the greatest teacher. You are your greatest master and the first step to develop a stronger sense of self is to look within and start recognizing the importance of Feelings. Being a creature that has reached a level of consciousness that perceives emotion at a more comprehensive state, as humans, we have a responsibility to ask ourselves ‘why?’ when we experience an emotion. We have reached a state of consciousness where we should not react instinctively but consciously. The goal is to explore our human feelings to develop and grow and learn to react in a conscious manner and to simply exist in our space to understand our creative passions. The creative passions we have possibly forgotten due to adulthood. We must develop a sense to consciously question our emotions from within and feel out our sense of mission. When we obtain our creative mission we can can begin to feel our creative purpose. It is then we want to enter the dimension of thought that is possible when we learn to silence the self and open our mind to the void. However, we must first embrace this void of  nothingness. It is not something you see, but feel. You will first start to re envision your childhood when you were free. Free of thought, and free to think. You will naturally gravitate towards activities, or at least ideas we were intrigued with in our youth. A time when activities and ideas we played with when we could more easily be in a state of Being, and that would be our childhood. When we were free of the influences of modern life and pressures of our society, when we were free to play and express without judgment or a jaded perspective. How did we play with our toys? What toys (tools) were we attracted to? What kind of stories would we create or entertain ourselves through expression with our toys and imagination? All questions we can start to explore once we grasp our feelings at a deeper state of understanding and practice mindful meditation to learn how to silence the thoughts that buzz in our mind. We can then have a stronger connection with our subconscious again after we have been numbing ourselves to the structures we were so unpreparedly thrown into. We utilize the realm of thought and void to ask our consciousness through our expression of creation of what we have forgotten of ourselves. What we see as entertainment is us reminding ourselves of our forgotten potential. The consciousness informs itself through creation. Search and feel out those childhood passions and activities that we explored so freely in our youth and combine with our accumulated experiences of living to piece them together to explore a possibility of a Mission that feels right for you.

Let us diverge for a moment on Mission and Purpose. Mission, for me at the time of this post, is to remind humans how to be human. I have always been attracted to the aspect of perspective. How one person could become jaded or stuck to one perspective was fascinating to me. Having no mission or focusing on too much mission keeps you to one perspective. We use Purpose, to propel us forward and act on our mission. At the time of this post, my purpose is writing. I utilize writing or story telling, even this blog to exercise, explore, and act on my mission. If I only stuck to writing with no mission, I would become a lost writer with no sense of direction. I would be writing all over the place as one could feel from my earlier posts. And in doing so I would only feel tormented and pulled by the negative energy of Mission. (Which is not a bad thing) That darkness is the universe reminding me I am off my path. It is telling me I am too much in the perspective of purpose and I must center myself once more. And that is to say Darkness and negative energy not in the sense of evil, but more from a Taoist view, the feminine energy of stillness introspection (Such as the concept of a baby safely developing in a mothers womb). To be enveloped in a mission with no purpose is to be covered in darkness. To be consumed in thought, stuck in one's own mind, stuck in a perspective of over thinking and no action. But while surrounded in darkness, it becomes easier to spot the light. The light that makes us enact and pushes us forward. In Taoism it is the masculine energy, Yang. In our case, it is the creation energy perspective of Purpose. Purpose is the light that we move towards. However the closer we move towards purpose, we become prone to being enveloped by its perspective and darkness is all around us. The push and pull of them both is called crisis, crisis is good as it is only trying to center us within a balanced perspective. Break us from our stuck point of view. Crisis, in a sense, is a constant of the universe and stillness is unnatural.

With mission we explore with our child-like nature, with purpose we parent ourselves with discipline. Being the adult that organizes and plans for the path of the pursuit of happiness. Just as Yin and Yang, there is darkness in light and light in darkness. We must stay childlike in our Purpose, keeping that flowing thought on a plan that adapts to the needs and surroundings. And parent-like with our mission, by understanding the roots of our feelings, especially the difficult ones. Meosophy encourages the perspective of exploring feelings to understand the development of one's current state of mind. To call oneself out on the toxicity that they, themselves, are a product of created by familial traumas. We all have traumas and we can all be loving. Understand the toxicity within, then rid yourself of it so you can begin to grow and flourish to move towards a more prosperous experience of creativity. From there, you can hopefully make plans on how to share your creative mission and purpose with others so they can embrace and experience your expression which hopefully comes from a source of being a loving person. You ask yourself where the right is in this world and you realize it starts with you. You are the one that works on the self to become the joy you wish to experience. You set yourself to become that joyful and loving person by questioning your thoughts and feelings that you experience and reminding yourself that that is the point. The point is to Be, and we choose to be the ones where the cycle of trauma stops at us. We choose to be loving.